whew! my head is about to explode...this is the mode in which i have immeasurable ideas and emotions overflowing within. i guess it's my rachi's mode (as someone i used to know identify others) which sometimes it's painfully hurting me in a way because I'm getting saturated and unable to hold more. Occasionally, it happens when I'm on my most tranquil state that unknowingly my mind is flooded with all the thoughts or things that bothers me most at present. To name some is my excitement towards the blessings coming my way like the laptop i got from my sister and the phone i recently acquired from a postpaid plan that somehow upsets me coz' i ain't a techy person and doesn't know how to troubleshoot...sigh!, my sentiments for my niece and nephew's permanent stay with their parents abroad, guilty feeling that i wasn't able to express gratitude to God or even reflect during the Lenten season, my hesitations in reporting back to work today due to my newly extracted tooth which is still causing me discomfort, being nostalgic to someone discreetly,craving for a stress-free summer vacation,distressing feeling to prepare for the future and upcoming events,not to mention the idea of me being obese nowadays is a bit stressing too and a whole lot more disturbing things going on... at times, I feel i wanted a sudden halt, a full stop and reboot my whole system but i guess this is normal. I still believe that things are meant to happen on it's own, all i can do is enjoy each moment and find ways to get thru it, perhaps a skill that i need to develop more... survival skills to carry on... :)
